Suddenly, everything is bright and sunny.

Wakey wakey

labyu — Tue, 21 Apr 2009 08:28:37 +0000

Uwi ka na dito.
Miss na kita.
=(

No more I love you’s?

labyu — Fri, 17 Apr 2009 02:05:22 +0000

Each time I try to become rational, I become more critical of things. Statements come out of my mouth. I hurt feelings. I cause pain.

Idealism doesn’t work at all. Imperfection may seem annoying. Flaws sometimes get in the way. But that’s the way things are. Paradox is best illustrated by love.

I am sorry. I did not mean to convey a negative thing. Nothing has changed. I do not love you any less. I am this person and when I get like this, just ignore me. My love for you is pure and big. It will always stay that way.

Bitin!

labyu — Mon, 06 Apr 2009 15:04:20 +0000

Mabilis ang two days kapag kasama kita.
Short ang long weekend kapag kasama kita.
Kulang ang twenty four hours sa isang araw kapag kasama kita.

Kaya ibahay mo nako.

He he he.

Zoom

labyu — Thu, 26 Mar 2009 15:01:08 +0000

The heat was uncontrollable, prompting dehydration to throw threats of presence. Feet were crying for rest, back was aching of pain, tummy worms were marching for a feeding program. Heads were bobbing, as if there was a competition for breaking a world record on the most number of people inside a mall at a particular time. But everything seemed so majestic and delightful. Complaining was at most bottom level of the list. I was with J, and everything was amazingly perfect.

Three hours and a half seemed three minutes. Time flew downright fast — really fast. One minute, there were greetings and laughter and stories. The next minute, a temporary goodbye, waving in the air the sadness that usually comes with it, spreading like a virus determined to wreck a well-functioning system. But counting on J, on his thinking that there are more opportunities to come, more time in the succeeding days to spend together, has never failed to seal the happiness brought about by companionship, intact and preserved.

On Sunday, time will stop. It will be suspended. It will be well spent. On Sunday, laughter will rule our world, together with happiness. Together with love. Together with stories. Together with everything and anything that we will do as we take over our growing world. On Sunday, J and I will be spending some good time like kings, just like what we do each time we meet. Just like what we will always do as we soar higher and higher.

Fluless and Jful

labyu — Wed, 25 Mar 2009 14:59:14 +0000

Flu disarmed me for three days. This prevented me from seeing J. I missed him a lot. But his messages and reminders made me strive to get better.

Finally, I am alright. And tomorrow, I’m gonna go see J. I want to see him smile. I want to hear his stories. I want to give him a hug and a kiss. I want to spend some good, good time with him. Sixteen hours to go and we’re going to see each other!

Happy Three

labyu — Sun, 22 Mar 2009 14:31:17 +0000

It’s our third month today!

With all things going on around us, our personal lives, I am quite confident that we are on the right path. Thank you for your unconditional love. Thank you for the respect and trust you have bestowed upon me. Thank you for making me laugh, and bringing me into the real world. Thank you for holding on despite our differences and priorities. I love you, and my heart is yours.

Love is all about growing. Together, let us grow and bring out the best from each one. I am always with you. And I am more than happy being with and having you.

Happy 3, baby!

Ceasefire

labyu — Thu, 19 Mar 2009 15:04:48 +0000

Let’s make things sunnier and brighter. I would like to believe that this is just a phase. This is not something new, and we can pass through this with flying colors. Hold my hand and we will brave everything that passes our way.

See my pride and principles as one thing that makes me unique, and something that makes me who I am. On my end, I will be more open and mature with how you express things and with how you show your feelings. We have just known each other, and I think the period of getting to know one another on a more personal level has just begun.

We will meet half way. and we will work things out diplomatically. Just like what you showed me this evening, it is a manifestation that we can make it through. I am impressed with the way you handled things, and I want to learn from you, and from what happened between us tonight.

You do not want me to apologize. But I think I owe you one. I made you feel the way you felt, the one you told me inside my car. I did not mean to make you feel that way. Rather, I was just totally open with my emotions, and the way I control them. And you have seen how bad I was, and you, on the other hand, have shown me that I can be good if only I let down my defenses and choose to have a mind open to logical explanations.

I am not sick and tired of you. If I am, I think it would be obvious. I am so much in love with you, that until now it pains me that I hurt you and that you think I am exhausted with you. I am not taking this against you. As you told me, it came from your assumption of me picking a fight with you every chance I get. Again, I would like to debunk this assumption. How can I get tired with you, when my heart and mind shout your name, when I want to be happy I think of those amazing things we have done together, when I wake up I look forward to the afternoon because I know I will see you again, and be with you again.

I love you, J. I love you. I love you. I love every part of you. It would be sadder, and harder if you are not around. Stay with me. Stay with me.

May asim ka pa!

labyu — Mon, 16 Mar 2009 15:14:19 +0000

Over the weekend, J and I were pretty busy with our respective personal stuff. Saturday and Sunday were devoted to family as my sister celebrated her birthday yesterday. J on the other hand opted for a well-deserved rest on Saturday and went to do a family errand on Sunday. For two consecutive Sundays, we were not able to meet. Last weekend, I missed him a lot.

We met in a mall today. Our cars were parked side by side. I brought some CDs that I think he would want to copy in his iPhone. Before strolling, I sat in his car and we both listened to some albums. We visited a bookstore, had a snack slash dinner, checked out some stuff, went to the grocery and bought some items from the bread shop. Before going home, we kissed goodbye in his car.

J and I also talked over the phone. I was talking about how to spend my birthday this year, and jokingly I told him that I want it showbiz style, where there would be a big production number for me in a Sunday show — my family would be there to greet me, phone patches, VTRs and all that jazz. J had very funny ideas on local celebrities who would be there to grace the segment and greet me a happy birthday. Of all those people he mentioned, he was really having the time of his life with a crazy fortune teller, a virginal fag and a hunk rumored to be batting for the same field. It was really hilarious!!!

Today is a milestone too, if I am to start counting from last week. Nobody said anything off, nobody felt anything off. It is as if peace and goodwill to men were shared to the entire world. Wink, wink. He he he.

I am happy today…

labyu — Fri, 13 Mar 2009 15:48:34 +0000

…because we were able to iron out issues detrimental to what we have.
…because despite of what I am, you feel that I love you and that I care for our relationship.
…because you care for me and you do things to make things work for us.
…because we believe that we can make good things happen.
…because you always remind me that life is more livable with you around me.
…because you never fail to show how much important I am to you.
…because you listen to me and help me find perspective in things.
…because we talk about things in a more mature level.
…because we learn from our errors.
…because you love me.

I am happy today, and I hope to be happy always. With you.

Poknat

labyu — Thu, 12 Mar 2009 15:12:12 +0000

I just want to let you know that it was just a silly bet. Don’t take it against yourself. It was just a joke for me. I am not serious about it. I am not asking you to put action into your words as everything was done in a humorous context. Nothing has changed. Nothing.

I still love you. I stll love every part of you. And I will always do.